My mind is such a mess right now. I just went to a meeting with the university exchange department, and it seems like I probably don't know enough Italian to go to the Universita di Bologna. I really, really want to study in Italy, but I'm not sure if that will be able to happen. It's so hard to trust that things will all work out for the best when it seems that everything you've wanted for so long is so far from reach. There are so many amazing things that I want to do but living in Italy for a while is the ultimate; to not be able to do that is going to break my heart. Argh. Sometimes I wish I was less intense about things, that I wouldn't become so obsessed or attached to ideas and ideals because it just makes letting them go all the more difficult.
